Friday, March 9, 2012

Some Poetry

I want to see all your scars
I want to show you mine
I want to put my hand in yours
Even through hard times

I cannot promise you forever
I can barely promise you today
I know what I want
But what I want doesn't always stay

I have dreams about possibilities
But dreams can lead to lies
And "Never is a Promise"
And I don't want to lose these ties

I understand my weaknesses
I understand my strengths
I have all that I want to say
But prefer to keep you safe

I never said yes
I never said no
I never let my emotions
Endlessly flow

I kept all my secrets
I kept all my lies
Wishing you could still
Tie all my ties

I held you so close
But pushed you far away
Not wanting you to go
Never asking you to stay

My heart was in your hands
You never knew it's weight
So here is where we stand
Both resigned to our fate

A touch of lips
A brush of air
His fingers running through my hair

A fantasy
It's just for me
This yearning-Oh just let me be

Alone with him
My only friend
In hopes my broken heard will mend

A silly dream
My fantasy
A thought that will not let me be

I close my eyes
Hope not to rise
This reality has become my lie

His arms hold close
His fingers press
All of my fears he does undress

My fingers quake
My chest does ache
My sigh his words alone may take

Alone I dream
Of Wonderous things
Away from my own

Monday, March 5, 2012

The Silence

The air was wet and heavy. The night cold and lonely. She waited again for a change but was met only with silence. The silence that had been following her for so long it felt natural. The silence that had become her constant companion. Not even the rain fell to keep her company. Not even the darkness cared of her woes.

It hadn't always been so haunting. It hadn't always been this empty.

Once Upon a Time, his words filled the void with color. The sounds he spoke strung together into symphonies that carried her through her days. Together they created duets that painted a masterpiece. Their whispers became her prayers.

Once Upon a Time, The Silence was only a shadow because Their Silence was a wonderland of possibility. Of mysteries and or maybes. Once Upon a Time, they meant something to each other.

But somewhere along the pathway, their strings began to snap and their songs turned sharp. Their duets became her solos until she gave up all together. Giving into The Silence as it came to her with open arms and a wicked grin, claws pulling her far away from a world of color.

And so she sits. Waiting for a change she knows will never come. Yearning for a song of Home, a place she's not sure even exists anymore. She sits and listens to The Silence breathe. The heavy thumping of her own heart beat her only comfort.